my brain rapid fires
like a trigger happy 
thirteen year old boy
playing call of duty 
that’s exactly why i spend most nights 
wide awake
counting stars instead of sheep
and contemplating the meaning 
of the smallest things

and while i know that
everything looks different once
the morning comes
tonight, underneath my self made stars
things are just a little bit brighter
and i hope you know why

but if my random musings are lost
on you as they are on… well everyone
i’ll put it one last way
my thoughts don’t dance alone tonight 
instead they waltz to you
wherever it is you rest your head. 

so i hope your thoughts are dancing too. 

i bare no claim to you now
we have no relation or ties 
we are not lovers nor friends  
but my love for your continues on 
in a place and time
that has no begining and no end 
and so it shall continue on 
forever. 

so if one day you ever awake 
and feel that all the love in the world is lost to you 
know that this cannot be true 
for somewhere in the depths of my soul 
there you are and there you shall remain.  
always. 

before it becomes cliche to say so 
before people start making resolutions 
and kissing at midnight. 
before the clanking of crystal and
explosions off in the distance
i need to make some changes of my own.

i will fear nothing
i will smile constantly
i will leave nothing but light in the places i go
i will change for no one but myself
i will fight like hell for everything i believe in
i will create
i will work like my life depends on it 
because my life really does depend on it
i will do good in the world
i will be more beautiful everyday 

and i’ll make them proud of me 
and i’ll know my name 
and i’ll give all of myself 
and i will be saved

i will be saved. 


 

a city named for a bird, that rises from it’s own ashes 
how incredibly fitting that is.
goodbye to the city that raised me.
goodbye to the people who held me close.
it’s time for me to go home <3 

(via diamonds-and-g-o-l-d)

i am thankful for the people in my life 
who i can just look at and know that
they know me (sometimes better than
i know myself). i am thankful for
california and that i finally have a tiny
place in the world that i can call home.
i’m thankful for my mother and all of her 
phenomenal strength. i’m thankful that i 
still have the ability to fight for the things
that i believe in and that i doubt i will ever
have any reason not to. i’m thankful for
city lights and worn down docks, thankful
for indie music and the way my cat sleeps
like a little old chinese man. i’m thankful for
the fact that nothing stays broken for long.
but most of all i’m thankful that at least once
a day i get to look around at my silly little life
and realize that i have everything i need. 

happy thanksgiving everyone <3

once there was a bird with torn out feathers 
and broken wings and i sat with him awhile
and told him everything would be okay.
nothing stays broken forever.  

and months went by and seasons changed
and suddenly that bird was just as beautiful
as it had always been.

so i go to see him from time to time, to serve 
as my reminder.
that all wounds heal in time.